Having gone on indefinite hiatus in 2016, the members of One Direction haven’t performed together in nearly a decade and their millions of young admirers have since grown up. But when Dee, now 29, found out that Liam Payne had died last week in a fall from a hotel balcony in Argentina, she suddenly “felt the walls close in.”

Payne fell from a third-floor balcony at a hotel in Argentina. The sudden news of his tragic death has shocked the internet and fans.